Discography/Lyrics

Pillowhead (1998)-woppitzer

Superfast (2000)-universal/woppitzer

How To Break Up A Band (2011)-woppitzer

Beardsley Mitchell EP (2014)-woppitzer

  • Call It A Night
  • Sent You Up
  • Granola
  • LightYear
  • Topless Girl

LOADED WITH COBRAS (2019)-woppitzer

  • under my skin
  • dream asbestos
  • even start
  • lost at sea
  • cold hard
  • it’s like the sun
  • till the end
  • overhead
  • manhattan
  • mexican smoke

 

b-sides/demos (1997-2002)

LOADED WITH COBRAS

Under My Skin

It was all in my head…

at least, I think that’s what you said,

when you were holding my hand.

You walked me out in the light.

You got under my skin

Tell me where do I begin…

Tell me where do I start.

And you opened my eyes

when you showed me the night skies

and said, “Look what we are!

You take the farthest star,

and you go with your mind.

Me and you are mine”

Dream Asbestos

I’m not incapable of flight

and you were all made up of flowers

like all forward-thinking men of this age

we’ll submit to those in power

so breathe asbestos ‘round the foyer

walls embrace us, asleep in your shade

everything’s alight, extinguish me tonight

with the friends and the waves

and the birds get their wings through their falling

another prank you pull, everyone is a fool

it’s always happening now

so dream asbestos, blow me away

i’ll be patient, electric i’ll rage

everything’s alight, extinguish me tonight

through the wolves and the rain

and the trees you can’t see for the forest

another smoke you pull, everyone is a fool

it’s always happening now

Even Start

Sittin’ in the back of your house,

I’m sittin’ in the back of your house

Oh nothing could be wrong with me

I’m sitting in the back of your house

I’m watching you the sun’s in my eyes

You got one foot underneath of your thigh

oh everything is perfect

I’m just watching you the sun’s in my eyes

Cohabitation didn’t work

The gravitation pulled us under

And I don’t know why

Why we’d even start

Let’s get an even start.

It’s only just the two of us now

A sheltered bubble in our own crowd.

The din has gone soft for us

It’s only just the two of us now.

Why we’d even start

Let’s get an even start

I’m sittin’ in the back of your house

Sittin’ in the back of your house

Oh everything is perfect

I’m just sittin’ in the back of your house

Oh, the world is on pause for us

I’m sittin’ in the back of your house.

Lost At Sea

I didn’t know you were leaving

so I never wondered why

I’m not ready to believe it

that we’d ever say goodbye

we’ve spent our whole lives living

like we were never gonna die

and I know that you’re lost at sea

and I know that you’ve drowned

but I hope that you’re not lost to me in the sound

we’ve rummaged through your secerets

and talked about your lies

we all have our reasons

so i thank you for the time

we’ll call off the search and rescue

there’s nothing more to find

and I know that you’re lost at sea

and I know that you’ve drowned

but I hope that you’re not lost to me in the sound

Cold Hard

I didn’t really wanna go downtown last night

But there is very little that I wouldn’t do for you

I just wanted to stay at home and be quiet

But I just filled you in on everything you thought you knew.

I didn’t really wanna keep it all inside of me.

And there is very little that I couldn’t say to you.

But goddammit the same things always happen

Yeah…in the minute it just took me to be overdue

Say it’s already gone, this is my own

This is the only thing left

I don’t know, I guess I was wrong

When I said it’s for the best

I don’t know why I wouldn’t vouch for it

Especially when I know that it’s the

Cold hard truth

Oh yeah it’s the cold hard truth.

It’s Like the Sun

And my eyes are open wide

Wide and I don’t know why I still see

See the summer, see the fall

See the winter, see it all

And I’ll watch the dailies now

Now is just the second before now

Now I see it coming on so strong

Getting closer to the day

To the world from out of space

It’s shining down upon my face

Just like the warm embracing rays

Oh, it’s like the sun.

So my eyes are on the screen

The screen is filled with images of light

Light the camera lens and write the lines

Write the love yeah write the times

And I’ll get to everything

Everything is getting better everyday

Everyday I’m getting closer to the places

Getting closer to the day

To the world from out of space

It’s shining down upon my face

Just like the warm embracing rays

IT’S LIKE THE SUN MOTHERFUCKER!

It’s Till The End

I’ve been a few thgings I can’t remember

I’ve done a few things I can’t forget

I never offered to make an effort

I never wanted to listen to your requests

You’ll go running, but it’s till the end

You’ve always been there, since when I can’t remember

You’ve done a few things I can’t forgive

I never offered to extend you credit

I never wanted to pay off all your debts

and you’ll go running

I guess I’ll take it till I don’t take it anymore

You’ll go running, but it’s till the end

Overhead

I will carry off your cannonball

see you flying and watching as you fall

you were saying that you were up against the wall

you weren’t looking for me after all

it’s over my head

you gotta pull me out

out in front of what you never are

proven from your eyes a superstar

it’s over my head

you gotta pull me out

Manhattan

I had it all figured out I thought this was made of lead

I was just humming along I’s just trying to do what I said

I wish you’d write it in a letter

I wish you’d drop it in the mail

I wish you’d hung me up and cut the nail

It’s already gone…away from me.

Oh my heart is gone away from me.

I have it all figured out I KNOW this is made of lead

I’m gonna stay like this, stay like this, stay like this ‘til I’m dead

I guess I’d say I saw it was coming

I guess I’d say I saw it was black

I guess I’d say I saw it was coming back.

It’s already gone…away from me.

Oh my heart is gone away from me.

Oh my head is warm ‘cause now I’m always right

Mexican Smoke

It’s that mexican smoke blocking out the sun

clogging up my lungs baby here it comes

It’s that mexican smoke burning in my eyes

been here for days filling up the skies

It’s that mexican smoke it’s why I’m sad

it gets in my head and it makes me mad

It’s that mexican smoke it won’t stay away

coming in again to fuckin up my day

It’s that mexican smoke eats the paint off my car

killing all the trees, ruining my guitar

It’s that mexican smoke my voice it got no burl

that’s why I’ve got no life, it’s why I got no girl

It’s that mexican smoke’s why Phil Hartman’s dead

Why the TV sucks, why Mars is red

It’s that mexican smoke it’s why the Rockets lost,

why the Oilers moved, what a horrible cost

It’s that mexican smoke blocking out the sun

clogging up my lungs baby here it comes

It’s that mexican smoke burning in my eyes

been here for days filling up the skies

It’s that mexican smoke’s why Phil Hartman’s dead

Why the TV sucks, why Mars is red

It’s that mexican smoke it’s why the Rockets lost,

why the Oilers moved, what a horrible cost

 

lyrics (alphabetical order by song)

(if the song title has **** next to it, click on the **** to read the story behind the song)

alvin****

I am back again

To the safety of my couch

With my best friends

The ones who never let out

I met a girl

Her name was bovine

Took her home with me last night and..

I am so happy here

And I never have to try

To be, to feed

Sit back and drink some beer

And go date-rape with the guys

In Alvin

Woke up at ten

Light my cigarette

Got drunk again

Just to drown out my regrets

Lying naked

Just wearing this stupid grin

I am vacant but in this

Town I fit right in

I am so happy here

And I never have to try

To be, to feed

Sit back and drink some beer

And go date-rape with the guys

In Alvin

Eating pork and drinking wine

Everything’s just fine

amber valleta****

Well there’s 22 shades of Amber Valleta

And there’s 30 things she can do

To you if you let her

She’s daring in chanel

Feline in versache

And fairy-like in john galiano

I don’t know

Well there’s 22 shades of Amber Valleta

And there’s 30 things you can do

To her if she’ll let ya

She’s daring in chanel

Feline in versache

And fairy-like in john galiano

But Johnny just don’t know my babe so

Preach on sister where you going to

You’re so sensuous and thoughtful baby

A full-length view

Want a wink want a smile praised for doing

Nothing at all

Want to be a top model

Well there’s 22 shades of Amber Valleta

And there’s 30 things she can do

To you if you let her

She’s daring in chanel

Feline in versache

And fairy-like in john galiano

but Johnny just don’t know my babe so

Preach on sister where you going to

You’re so sensuous and thoughtful baby

A full-length view

Want a wink want a smile praised for doing

Nothing at all

Want to be a top model

She’ll join me in the bathroom for

A masturbation session pages

Turn and stick together pages

Stick together honey

Want a wink want a smile praised for doing

Nothing at all

Want a wink want a smile praised for doing

Nothing at all

Preach on sister where you going to

You’re so sensuous and thoughtful baby

A full-length view

Want a wink want a smile praised for doing

Nothing at all

Want to be a top model

amplifier

If I could turn her on

I would but it’s out

Of my hands

I’ll never figure it out

And if she just would

Turn on I’d end up

Wrapped all around

Her little fingers

Who knows maybe I

Started to strong

I didn’t mean to impose

This is getting me

Nowhere

If I could find all

Her switches

I’d flip them to

See if she’d hum

That’s not my decision

But she could

take what I’ve done

between her fingers and thumb

She could send it out

Somewhere

She’s an amplifier

Like I never

have known before

If she would let me

All the sounds that

She could get

I swear

She’s a dual-rectifier

And I’m melting

All over the floor

I think she knows it

But she never really shows

That she cares for me

So I’m thinking that

I must be too lame of a player

If I could just get her going

I’d be lying in her deep tones

They’d rumble down to my bones

If I could find all

Her switches

I’d flip them to

See if she’d hum

That’s not my decision

But she could

take what I’ve done

between her fingers and thumb

She could send it out

Somewhere

She’s an amplifier

Like I never

have known before

If she would let me

All the sounds that

She could get

I swear

She’s a heart-liquifier

And I’m melting

All over the floor

I think she knows it

But she never really shows

That she cares for me

So I’m thinking that

I must be too lame of a player

I’m so pathetic I think

That I’m making all the wrong turns

I must have said it fifty times

To fifty people who’ve heard

That I’m just waiting, waiting

Waiting, waiting, waiting

For her

She is..

She’s an amplifier

Like I never

have known before

If she would let me

All the sounds that

She could get

I swear

She’s a dual-rectifier

And I’m melting

All over the floor

I think she knows it

But she never really shows

That she cares for me

You know she don’t care for me

She don’t care for me

So I’m thinking that

I must be too lame of a player

anyway

You gotta be kidding me

I’m through with you girl anyway

I’ll wait for you I always do

It’s dumb but I want to anyway

So here we are stuck in hell

Same old game we know it well

I don’t mind anyway

Spark it up and numb me on and off again

Oh what the hell, I don’t mind anyway

Been sitting here, have another beer

I’m drunk but I want one anyway

I just don’t care enough about you

So fuck you anyway

So here we are stuck in hell

Same old game we know it well

I don’t mind anyway

Spark it up and numb me on and off again

Oh what the hell, I don’t mind anyway

You gotta be kidding me

I’m through with you girl anyway

Too numb to know that I’m happy

Without you I’m better off anyway

I just don’t care enough about this

To make the effort to show you that

I care enough to try to get you back in bed with me

So here we are stuck in hell

Same old game we know it well

I don’t mind anyway

Spark it up and numb me on and off again

Oh what the hell, I don’t mind anyway

asd

It’s just another shitty day

You’re not here with me

I don’t know where you are

You’re probably out drinking

With somebody else

You used to drink with me

We’d waste away and all

Our time and money would just disappear

You were my barfly and I was

Your drunken Mickey Rourke

Type of slob

We’d fall into bed

And you, you’d look so beautiful with

Love and lust and sleep all

Clouding your eyes

We’d fall asleep and then

In a few weeks

You’d get mad at me

You’d disappear and then

I wouldn’t see you again

For a while then you’d

Come back to me

You wouldn’t tell me anything

About where you’d been

It always works the same

Took you in my arms and

Lied to you

Told you how I thought that

You would want me to feel

The truth it never pays

But lies will only keep on

Coming make me hate

Myself all that much more

ballad of the lonely guys

The lonely guys can’t get high

But every Rocket’s game

We stop and make them try

Brian and pete, joe and me

Big mike, Justin, Jeremy, jace

And greg green

The lonely guys they get by

Signing about foreskin, tiajuana

And Swedish spies

The lonely guys are better than you

They’re just huge slobs

With high-tech jobs

Mona’s always joining other bands

And they really wish she would stop

At their shows anything goes

They get real drunk and play their kooky rockandroll

Pete threw up, the front row ducked

Mona kept on playing and Brian didn’t even look up

They’re all fucked up they think they suck

Best band in Houston

If you hear them you’ll fall in love

With the lonely guys

The lonely guys are better than you

And you

bluesky

I want out of here

There’s got to be

Someplace for the dream in me

Looking out at pacific sunsets

To Austin sunsets

Wish it could’ve been you

Instead of her cold eyelids

That close and close and never

Open here’s to hoping

Give me one more chance

To try and be a little

More unkind

Hide those that you

Don’t want me to know

Is it true? If you

Were here I’d ask you

Don’t you think the sky

Is really blue?

Not a cloud in sight

Well maybe one or two

Too few to mention

The music stares at me

So cold and sequential

Keeping time with the

Perfect sound of my

Heart beating

slow it down

Twist it around and slam me

On my back in anxious waves

Of idle time pass over me

And make me aware

Is it true?

If you were here

I’d ask you

The sky is blue

If you were here

I’d ask you

I suck your kisses down

It’s true

The sky is blue

If you were here I’d ask you

boys in the hood****

Woke up quick at about noon

Just thought that I had to be

In Compton soon

I gotta get drunk before

The day begins before

My mother starts bitchin

About my friends

Bought to go and damn near

Went blind young niggas

On the path throwin up

Gang signs I went in

The house to get the clip

With my mac10 on the side

Of my hip

Bailed outside and pointed my

Weapon and just as i

Thought the fools kept stepping

Jumped in the fo, hit the juice

In my ride I got front and back

And side to side

Then I let the alpine play

It was bumping new shit

By NWA it was

‘Gangsta, gangsta’ at the

top of the list then i

played my shit it went

something like this

cruising down the street

in my 64, jocking the bitches

slappin the hoes

went to the park to get

the scoop knuckleheads

out there cold shootin some hoop

a car pulls up who can it be

a fresh el camino rolling

kiloG he rolls down the window

and starts to say ‘ it’s all about

making that GTA’

cuz the boys in the hood are

always hard come talking

that trash and we’ll pull

your card knowing nothing

in life but to be legit don’t

quote me boys cuz I ain’t

said shit

bored as hell and I wanna

get ill so I go to a place

where my homeboys chill

fellas out there tryin to make

that dollar I pulled up in the

64 impala greeted with a 40

and I start drinking and from

the 8ball my breath start stinkin

I gotta get my girl to rock that body

Before I left I hit the Bacardi

Pulled up to the house and

Got her outta the pad

Dumb bitch said something

To make me mad she said

Something that I couldn’t

Believe so I grabbed the stupid bitch

By her nappy-ass weave

Started talking shit wouldn’t

You know I reached back

Like a pimp and I smacked the

Hoes and her father stood up and

He started to shout so I threw

A right cross and knocked

His old ass out

cuz the boys in the hood are

always hard come talking

that trash and we’ll pull

your card knowing nothing

in life but to be legit don’t

quote me boys cuz I ain’t

said shit

punkass trippin but it’s

alright homie scored a ki

he’s gonna fly punkass fly

c-section

When you took your shot

Well I think you said it all

And that’s a lot

But it’s all in how you phrase

The things you want to say

You’ve done what you’ve done

And I’m going back to that

Conversation

When you put me in my place

I saw it on your face

Cause you’re morally dry

You’ve got a little devil

Painted right on your eye

When you try what you try

I gotta say that i

Don’t know why

And you know it’s true

Cause every time I see you

I just get that look

Like you know that you took

Everyone can’t see what

You’ve done

Cause you’re morally dry

You’ve got a little devil

Painted right on your eye

When you try what you try

I gotta say that i

Don’t know why

I don’t know why

call it a night

Don’t give me no shit

That’s why I’m gone

This isn’t how it’s

Supposed to be

With you crawling in

My skin I just can’t

Care about anything

How’d it happen

Who’s to blame

I want you less and less

Each day so stop

Following me cause

I’ve nothing left to say

I just want to be alone

Sit here getting stoned

And I don’t want to fight

But you never let it go

Getting on my nerves

So let’s call it a night

I’m a jerk I’m a dog

That’s what you’ll say about me

When you know I’m

Not around next you

Can’t live without me

You hang around with

All my friends my life

You’re forcing your way in

Don’t say heartbreak

It’s over now it’s too late

I just want to be alone

Sit here getting stoned

And I don’t want to fight

But you never let it go

Getting on my nerves

So let’s call it a night

communication problems

Staring at the problem set

Thinking it’s the same sad situation I bet

Thinking I got butterflies

Finding out it’s not quite like it i don’t know why

I say ‘it’s out’ when it’s too much

And it gets twisted in my guts

And my stomach

And it’s standing in the back of my head

It’s like a long trip taken without

All the people that you’re used to

Taking it with

It’s like a long standing communication problem

Vacations only work when you can get away

From the people that you need away from

Jumping at the chance to scream

Feelings are like attitudes

Bad and nothing in-between

Flying down the interstate

Thinking it’s the same sad situation

To be in

Though I don’t quite know why its

Twisted in my guts and my stomach

And it’s standing in the back of my head

It’s like a long trip taken without

All the people that you’re used to

Taking it with

It’s like a long standing communication problem

Vacations only work when you can get away

And it’s the littlest of people

You know these people

You are these people

And if only in the back of your mind’s

Condition the recognition

Oh, I won’t let it get that bad

I won’t let it get that bad

Oh i, only if you agree

Only if you agree

It’s out when it’s too much

it gets twisted in my guts

And my stomach

And it’s standing in the back of my head

It’s like a long trip taken without

All the people that you’re used to

Taking it with

It’s like a long standing communication problem

Vacations don’t ever work

It’s like a long trip taken without

All the people that you’re used to

Taking it with

It’s like a long standing communication problem

Vacations only work when you can get away

compulsive liar girl

Walking with my head on the ground

I’m looking like a disease

Could you please

Explain it to me

Once again I’m missing all

The ramifications and the

Subtleties any way you cut it

Baby it’s still the same

You are the only person

That I can blame

So why am I sitting here

Just writing these lame

Lyrics about a situation I

Can’t ever change

You said that we’d make better buddies

Than we would make mates

All the dates that you set up

Were just packed with too much

Confusion and drama baby

Overblown, should’ve known

That you’d make it out to seem

Somehow you put the blame

Solely on me

When everybody knows

What complete b

Cause they all can see

Institutions with you easily

You are just a shallow, empty hole

Put you in the back of the barrel

And roll

I sat by your silent, slit wrists

And listened to this

You said that I could never leave

Said you wouldn’t let me

I could not leave

I believed you

Compulsive liar girl

Now you’re free to tell all

Your lies to the rest of the world

crush on 99

dear kate****

Dear Kate, even though we’ve never met

I could tell from the outset

That you were not like all the other ones

They know it and I know it and they know it

And I know it too I’ve known it ever since you

First looked out at me from a magazine

The more of your face we see the thicker the mystery

Oh girl you said it so

Even if you run even if you turn

Even if you’re stripped and burned

Even if you’re haul even if you’re ass

Even if you’re superfast

Even if you’re in Spain even if you’re at arms

Even if you bit the rest and won

Dear Kate, through the years you have matured

But you’ll always look the same to me as you did

On the cover of the Face

They all say you’re flat they all say your face looks

Like Eric Stoltz in Mask but I disagree

Maybe they will see all the pretty things I see

From a bruised angel to a sultry siren

Kate strikes a pose

Even if you run even if you turn

Even if you’re stripped and burned

Even if you’re haul even if you’re ass

Even if you’re superfast

Even if you’re in Spain even if you’re at arms

Even if you bit the rest and won

They all point their fingers at your

Thread-like figure

They all blame you for making all the

Girls disfigured but I don’t think so

From a bruised angel to a sultry siren

Kate strikes a pose

Even if you set my house on fire

Even if you set my lawn ablaze

Even if you steal my stud dog Henry

And you make all your bitches feel the same

(I wanna see you, I wanna see if you

think you’d ever feel the same)

g-force

If I had a car and could drive

It around in the air

I’d give up my guitar and

Get a sports career

Cause you know I would

Make it then and my team

Would win every game

I was in

Slide over it back wards there’s

people in the sun, there’s people in the sun now

Track over it sideways there’s

Splinters in the sun, splinters in the sun now
And if I had some gore, and could move

It around in a phrase

I’d find out what it was for,

I’d hear what it would say

It’s so simple to move you there

Easy to move you there

And the team won’t care

Slide over it back wards there’s

people in the sun, there’s people in the sun now

Track over it sideways there’s

Splinters in the sun, splinters in the sun
Do you want to go?

Take the easy way

I don’t even have all that I’m cracked up to be

In the in-between see it slipping away
Do you want to go?

Take the easy way

I don’t even have all that I’m cracked up to be

In the in-between see it slipping

I’m fading, fading, fading

granola***

Guys like you are

Always so entertaining

‘I can’t help myself’,

She said ‘I’m crazy

For that smile’

Then she’d drag me

Down with her friends

To the demonstration

Do I have to share my

Girl with her cult life

Don’t call me apathetic

Cause I don’t believe the hype

Cause it’s people who believe

In things that are always taking lives

It’s ok that you want to take

Some time away from me

Cause it’s all about karma, alien invasions

Shakras, crystals and reincarnation

Just let me leave the left behind

Guys like you are

Always so entertaining

‘were just good friends’

She said ‘he’s so deep

And involved’ but me

Well she drags me down

Never ever lets me out

Well I’ve heard all I care

To hear of what with me is wrong

Your soul is rotten

But your teeth are

Pearly white

Everything that comes from you

Is fake and a lie

It’s ok that you want to take

Some time away from me

Cause it’s all about karma, alien invasions

Shakras, crystals and reincarnation

Just let me leave the left behind

Let’s go

It’s ok that you want to take

Some time away from me

Cause it’s all about karma, alien invasions

Shakras, crystals and reincarnation

Just let me leave the left behind

hey sandra

hong kong girl****

Maggie ooo

You are the sun and the moon

Shine down your light on us two

As we walk along

You will be my only song

Don’t go too soon

When I see you in my dreams

You would make sweet love to me

Now I’m back and I slave

Working everyday

9to5 waiting for the time

when you are mine all mine

Joey girl

You are the light in my world

And when we touch I am sure

As we walk along

You will be my only song

Oh Joey girl

When I see you in my dreams

You would make sweet love to me

Now I’m back and I slave

Working everyday

9to5 waiting for the time

when you are mine all mine

sweet Michelle

you hold the key to my cell

you know I won’t kiss and tell

As we walk along

You will be my only song

My hong kong girl

laura

Laura I would tie my head in knots

To get a look from you

And I would never think that that’s a lot

A lot for me to do

And when you said you

Were busy yesterday and went

Out with your friends

Oh, I sat home I thought of what to say

When I saw you again

And even though you treat me bad

And break my heart and sleep around

I never get too mad

Cause I know you and how you can be

that’s why I’ll never let you

Get away from me that easily

Laura

I watched ten romance movies on TV

Just last night alone

Oh, think of what a great boyfriend I could be

If you’d just come back home

But no Jake’s better he’s got

A good physique

he’s stupid but he’s huge

Oh, I was just as cut as

that big creep

When Mojo led the luge

And even though you treat me bad

And break my heart and sleep around

I never get too mad

Cause I know you and how you can be

that’s why I’ll never let you

Get away from me that easily

Laura

You said you weren’t home

I saw your car in the driveway gone (and your mom said you were there)

till two last night (dancing with my friends)

Standing in the disco ball light (tryin to lose me out)

Just a standin dancin, a standin dancin

You never care, you never care

And even though you treat me bad

And break my heart and sleep around

I never get too mad

Cause I know you and how you can be

that’s why I’ll never let you

Get away from me

that’s why I’ll never let you

Get away from me

that’s why I’ll never let you

Get away from me that easily

Laura

light year

marie

She takes me in she takes me out

my gun (oltram)

Can’t you see

Me and my gun

Faster than you think

Come on let’s go

coming round to the brink

Come on it’s all you know

See it slipping, floating off

To me it’s singing

It goes lalalalala lalalalala lalalala

I’m gonna make a sound

And get right out of it

name

I don’t think this was exactly what she

Had in mind when she came back and told me

That she’d see me not just see me only

Anyway it’s hard to say

I hear it and then it goes away

I’m better off we’re better off

We’re better off cause it’ll all turn out

Wrong in the end

and there’s nothing that you can say

or do to me that will change

what is going on

cause I can’t even hear her name

Without mentioning the same

I can’t find the words to tell her

I can’t find ways to explain

How I think when I’m without her

How I think that I’m ashamed

I put too much into the good days

And not enough in rain

And so she said all the right things

At the wrong time just to pull me in

She thinks she got me where she wants me

And that’s fine with me I’m inclined to see

Just what exactly I was meant to see

Cause I know it all will turn out wrong in the end

and there’s nothing that you can say

or do to me that will change

what is going on

cause I can’t even hear her name

Without mentioning the same

I got so much understanding

I’ve got so much that has changed

All the words I try to tell her

They get somehow rearranged

I put too much into the good days

If I seem down it’s not your fault

Cause who says why or what it costs

I can’t tell you why

cause I can’t even hear her name

Without mentioning the same

I can’t find the words to tell her

I can’t find ways to explain

How I think when I’m without her

How I think that I’m ashamed

I put too much into the good days

And not enough in rain

never write

You thought that you were old

A couple of years ago

You stalled out on the side

While others passed you by

Then you found it’s true

That nothing’s owed to you

You have to leave your bed

You have to leave your head

There should be a break

From life for us to take

That isn’t in a pill

That doesn’t make us wastes

Don’t call me, I won’t be here

I’m tired of making time

Just trust me, I won’t be

Sick of all these words

I’ll never write

You press with both your hands

Your brain back in your head

And try to keep it all

Together with your heart

And now your back is bad

You’re lonely and you’re flat

No one keeps you down

You just like lying on the ground

Don’t call me, I won’t be here

I’m tired of making time

Just trust me, I won’t be

Sick of all these words

I’ll never write

There should be a break

From life for us to take

That isn’t in a pill

That doesn’t make us wastes

That doesn’t make mistakes

Don’t call me, I won’t be here

I’m tired of making time

Just trust me, I won’t be

Sick of all these words

I’ll never write

out on a limb

last night I was out on the war path

under the moon light

then in the morning

under the sunlight

I didn’t worry none

Because I never do

You know I wouldn’t ever say

I would go out on a limb

No I wouldn’t ever go out there for him

I heard you say that to your friends

Last summer I was out at the lakeshore

Under the starlight

Then in the winter

Under the falling snow

I didn’t worry none

Because I never do

You know I wouldn’t ever say

I would go out on a limb

No I wouldn’t ever go out there for him

I heard you say that to your friends

It’s all the way at the ending

All day long at the ending

It’s like an escalating cause and effect

It’s like an escalator going nowhere

Because it never does

You know I wouldn’t ever say

I would go out on a limb

No I wouldn’t ever go out there for him

I heard you say that to your friends

parachute pants****

I used to love to break dance

In my parachute pants

When I was a kid

In my parachute

I did the wave and the centipede

And the backspin with incredible speed

Things were easier then

I would love to get back

On my diamond back

When I was a kid on my diamond back

I would do indo’s and the bunnyhop

And ride wheelies up and down the block

Things were easier then

When I turned thirteen

All my childhood dreams

Left me suddenly

And I still can’t believe my hair

I used to love mr.D

Willis and Kimberly

And Arnold was always

Shorter than me

Things were easier then

pi

glisten like a rocket

breathing far off in the universe

To bring around the thoughts

That send you back, give you birth

Get down on the floor

let’s see who you are

you’ll try in the end

you’re just losing ground

Maybe there’s a missile

Like a raindrop falling

All around just redirect it

With your sound and

You’ll be good to go

there’s nothing to know

keep falling apart

but try as you might

little pieces keep

coming out, coming out

freezing, pointed

coming out and coming out again

you wanted to say

wait, you’ve broken something

wait, don’t

you wanted to say

but you’re freaked out

by feeling down

wait don’t

you wanted to say

don’t listen to the ones

with open arms who always

seem so sincere

both when they’re acting and

they mean it no one

knows for sure

there’s nothing to know

keep falling apart

but try as you might

little pieces keep

coming out, coming out

freezing, pointless

coming out and coming out again

you wanted to say

wait, you’ve broken something

wait, don’t

you wanted to say

but you’re freaked out

by feelings now

wait don’t

pick up lines

It’s one o’clock and I’m still in bed

But I don’t want to leave here just yet

What’s for me out there, TV?

And too much time to sit and think

Months go by faster than days

The bills are due and I still can’t pay

There has got to be something more

Than these lyrics of angst and kiddie porn

Feels so good now

I don’t want out

I have never known anything before

That brings me to my knees

Keeps me on the floor

I still know you girl and

What you’re thinking of

Sorry I can’t stay

a thousand miles away

I’m so sick of writing songs

About the girls that broke my heart

But I know I’m not done

Don’t look now here comes another one

I’d get a job, but I’d just quit

Stay in bed and hit snooze again

It’s safe inside, you can’t get hit

But take one and some way

You’re an addict

Feels so good now

I don’t want out

I have never known anything before

That brings me to my knees

Keeps me on the floor

I still know you girl and

What you’re thinking of

Sorry I can’t stay

a thousand miles away

piece

I heard that you got a new tattoo

And it’s on the back of your calf

By your ex-boyfriend you moved

To Maui with him and now you’re back

Now I could take another thousand heartbreaks

For a chance at something true

That’s why oh why

Despite the things you try

I always thought that

Something was you

I don’t know what I said

Or what is in your head

But I thought I had your heart

Girl you’ve got mine

But you’re giving him your time

Your birthday was the hardest part

It’s just a piece of something I had known

Something I could see something out of reach

It’s just a piece of me to choke down

I want to believe

it makes it hard to leave

Nothing at all not even a call

Not even a call to say you’re fine

Instead you just sit with whomever you’re with

And check your messages from motel lines

It seems all along that I had you figured wrong

I never had you figured right from the start

Like a breeze in the night you left nothing of your flight

But some sequence and a little red heart

It’s just a piece of something I had known

Something I could see something out of reach

It’s just a piece of me to choke down

I want to believe

it makes it hard to leave

It might’ve been me

pillowhead

My back hurts so I’m gonna do

Nothing today

My ass is bleeding man I gotta

Do something

Why you all wanna go outside

And waste the day the air in here

Is fine I got Madden’97 for the 64

I’m fine

A sixpack and a loaded bong

Are aimed at me

7 frappacinos and I still can’t

sleep gonna be up until 10

or maybe noon again

you gotta drag me outta here

I got a pillowhead

But I’m fine

I freak on the outside

Facing the tv that way

I can fall asleep and still not

Miss a thing

gonna be up until 10

or maybe noon again

you gotta drag me outta here

I got a pillowhead

But I’m fine

planet cleaner

Gut the clouds and drown them out

With incense

So I can’t smell the stench of

Things to come

Bring back the sleeve that wears a heart

With no concepts to worry with

What is cool

So I kissed them all

Kissed them goodbye

Can you feel the same

Like it was before?

Changing colors, shape and sound

Any scene can rip you down

A simple plan still so unlaid

Another perfect day

Planet cleaning’s been arranged

Scrap the bags of protein packs

And wingtips

Schedule some transition

For yourself

Inside out and upside down

With no concepts to worry with

What is cool

So I kissed them off

Kissed them goodbye

Can you feel the same

Like it was before?

Changing colors, shape and sound

Any scene can rip you down

A simple plan still so unlaid

Another perfect day

Planet cleaning’s been arranged

riding high

I’ve been around the world

A thousand times or so it seems

To me I’ll never really find a fit

It’s still the same people and

Still the same crowd it’s just

Not accepted and still not allowed

but every single thing I say gets taken

Out of context some way

It’s only what you make it out of

I can’t pretend to be getting something

Out of all this time spent riding high

When I’m still stuck at home

With the hopes that you’ll find me

Or write me or call me on the phone

I said some things I probably should have

Kept all to myself to people who they

Maybe listen too well

It’s still the same feelings and still the same

Thoughts and it’s just what I gathered

And all that I got

Every single girl is gone taken away

By somebody else

It’s only what you make it out of

I can’t pretend to be getting something

Out of all this time spent riding high

When I’m still stuck at home alone

It’s only what you make it out of

I can’t pretend to be getting something

Out of all this time spent riding high

When I’m still stuck at home

With the hopes that you’ll find me

Or write me or call me on the phone

With the hopes that you’ll find me

Or write me or call me on the phone

ross’s plea****

This can’t be it

Nothing that I’ve ever done

Could ever warrant this

I can’t describe it

But it hurts

I can’t think of

The right words

Now my whole world’s

Falling apart

I can’t picture me without you

There must be something to say

There must be something I can do

There must be something to say

But I can’t for the life of me

Reach down inside of me

And find out what it is

Why can’t things stay the same?

The way they were yesterday

This can’t be happening

I keep thinking only if I could

Do last night again

I’d act so differently

But I guess I’m gonna

have to live with this

Well the whole world

Might as well die

Cause I can’t do a thing without you

I couldn’t be more sorry

I couldn’t feel more regret

I couldn’t be more sorry

And I wish that I

Could take it back

But I can’t

so that is that is that

And I wish that it

Wasn’t so bad

I can’t picture me without you

And I can’t do a thing without you

So I’ll spend my whole life

Waiting for you

Cause maybe someday you’ll see that

Maybe someday you’ll change your mind

Maybe someday you’ll see that

I was meant to be with you and

You to be with me too

Why can’t things stay the same

The way they were yesterday

The way they were yesterday

sing in tune

I can’t sing in tune

Without missing you

I can’t keep the beast at bay

At bay all day

I can’t cross the street

Without getting beat

Without getting beat down

I’ll mow you down

Here comes another one

One of those instances

That kills my friends

Here comes another one

I can’t keep the time

From dragging by

I can’t get high

Or get it right

I can’t catch a wave

And it’s been days

I don’t know where

To begin

It’s the end

Here comes another one

One of those instances

That kills my friends

Here comes another one

Of borrowed conscience

And passing trends

Here comes another one

I feel like shit

I just don’t fit

I just don’t fit in

With my friends

slice of heaven

it rolls around inside my head

before I know where to go

change of scene get off of me

sit here with endless flow

see you smile and find a way

stalling is no longer fun

I know you know the way it goes

Empty when it’s said and done

The sun

Don’t think it hasn’t been

A little slice of heaven

Cause it hasn’t

Slice of heaven

Wasn’t anything I’d known

And it seems you yell at me

Tell yourself that I don’t care

The things you say the drugs you take

Sit there with mindless stare

Your stare

Don’t think it hasn’t been

A little slice of heaven

Cause it hasn’t

Slice of heaven

Wasn’t anything I’d known

Everyday you yell at me

Tell yourself that I don’t care

It’s over and done

Before it’s begun

What’s keeping me here

Right here

Slice of heaven

Wasn’t anything I’d known

so far

Burn one down pass it ‘round

Do it again

Get me up so I won’t think I’m down

Take it slow, it’s easy you know

To want you back

Burn one down pass it ‘round

Do it again

Before I try to read between these lines

But you write so messy that it blurs my eyes

And crosses my mind

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

And you’re so far out

That you can’t come down

Burn one down pass it ‘round

Do it again

Get me up so I won’t think I’m down

Take it slow, it’s easy you know

To want you back in this and that

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

And you’re so far out

That you can’t come down

I want to take your breath away

With just one kiss

Pull me in and pass me

From your lips

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

So beyond the fastest angel’l run anybody over

And you’re so far out

That you can’t come down

some waves

I’ve been waiting here for

Long time and I don’t know

If I can get out of my head

Singing songs like you

Know I’ve been dead

And it’s getting kinda

Frustrating again

My old lady won’t come

Home again she stays out

All night but we won’t

Even fight she won’t tell

Me what’s wrong she

Won’t tell me what’s right

It’s getting kinda

Frustrating again

Be nice to find some

It’d be nice to find some waves

Baby that’s ok baby that’s alright

To low that I can’t see the waves

Behind the sun that shines

On me sometimes

Make a fool of me

I’ve been waiting here for

Long time and I don’t know

If I can get out of my head

Singing songs like you

Know I’ve been dead

And it’s getting kinda

Frustrating again

I’ve been singing these blue for

A long time won’t you take

Me home and put me to bed

I need your love in my arms

And a beer for my head

So I can fall on through to the end

Be nice to find some

It’d be nice to find some waves

Baby that’s ok baby that’s alright

To low that I can’t see the waves

Behind the sun that shines

On me sometimes

Make a fool of me

I’ve been singing these blue for

A long time won’t you take

Me home and put me to bed

I need your love in my arms

And a beer for my head

So I can fall on through to the end

soulblade****

sunburn

Compression, you’d do anything

To shed this sheepskin that is you

We’ve brought a better view

Can you still look at the pictures?

When it’s getting hard you don’t care

about the details

Can you keep it on the concourse

When they’re in your face?

Out of time, you’re on the outside

Looking in

You’re breathing, but no reaction

So, belly-up to this view and

Keep coming up, keep coming up

With things to say now

Purple static with overtones,

Pink sonbreros and pretty coasts,

And it’s just so

This cast just needs a sunburn

Don’t let me fall for the truth

I’m getting back me from you

You never have nothing to say

Can you be sincere on display

And not be afraid?

When you’re feeling like a failure

You never could fight your mind

You’re on the outside looking in

You’re breathing, but no reaction

So, belly-up to this view and

Keep coming up, keep coming up

With things to say now

Purple static with overtones,

Pink sonbreros and pretty coasts,

And it’s just so

This cast just needs a sunburn

All you’ve gotten for your frustration

Is ridicule and mediation, it’s just so

This cast just needs a sunburn now

Yea. Now. Can. Somehow.

Don’t let me fall for the truth

I’m getting back me from you

sunshine*****

It’s not mine, I don’t have any

But, you can handcuff me

And tie me down

You pay, I play

Cum on my face

No checks

I’m paid in cash

I’m clean, I’m clean

No weirdos please

But, I’ll take it in the ass

I’m under age

I’m Sunshine

I’m seventeen

What else could

you possibly want

you want a blowjob

from a good friend?

All my friends would

Laugh at me

If they could all see me

On my knees

I’m gonna give you mouth

To mouth to mouth

I’m gonna give it away

I’m under age

I’m Sunshine

I’m seventeen

I’ll bet you’d like to

Make me cum

And lick my lips

‘cause I’m so young

but no plastic love will make

me go “oh,oh” now

I’m gonna be there when

You cum and lick my lips

And bite my tongue

And numb it up, numb it up

Numb it down again

I’m under age

I’m Sunshine

I’m seventeen

superfast*** (see dear kate)

switcheroo

I keep to myself like nobody else

Like no one else I know

Nobody to write and nobody to call

Nobody at all

That I can say it’s breaking at the seams

That I never thought would split

That’s just it, that’s just it

You do the same thing to someone else

That they did to you switcheroo switcheroo

You the same to the radio the radio is new

The same one I know you say one and go

The same one I know you say one and go

Hit the high note running, the high note running

I never knew what you had said

Two in the fist, three in the head

Check it out man

topless girl****

Come and have a drink with me

And talk about the weather

Topless girl

If I had more money

Maybe we could be together

Topless girl

People call you Amber

But that isn’t your real name

Topless girl

Even with your clothes on

I would love you just the same

Topless girl

Now you know I like you

Want to take you to meet my mother

Topless girl

She’d be real impressed

By the way you get undressed

Topless girl

You found a place as my true love

When you found a place in my true love

Topless girl

wussypuff

Do what it takes to make it through the day

To be all right not bad just fine

For most of us most of the time

Wait till when she’ll pretend

That you know it’s the end

And I’ll say

I can still taste your breath upon my face

She’s everywhere I’ve seen enough

I’ll always be some kind of wussypuff

I’m turning out the lights

I’m wound too tight

Can’t sleep been on my knees

So long I can’t find my feet

I can still taste your breath upon my face

She’s everywhere I’ve seen enough

She’ll always be my little wussypuff

I’m stalling out again

I’m staying up on ephedrine

Can’t sleep been on my knees

So long I can’t find my feet

I can’t find my feet

Molly’s lips and fingertips

you know

You are so pretty here

That I’m falling behind

Oh no not again never mind

Let’s go and beg for time

You picked the wrong

Disaster

I can’t stop this thing from

Going fast

I don’t want to walk about the past

I don’t want to talk the road of

Those you may have had

You know these things they happen

You know

Which one do you want

There is no need to think

To speak to breathe

Let’s go it’s chemical green

You picked the wrong addiction

I can’t stop this thing from

Going fast

I don’t want to walk about the past

I don’t want to talk the road of

Those you may have had

You know these things they happen

You know

Songs and their back story…..

alvin

Chad- Alvin is my hometown. It is also Nolan Ryan’s hometown. It is a small-ish Texas town off of highway 6 near 288 (the Nolan Ryan expressway) sort of between Houston and Galveston. The song isn’t a knock on Alvin. It’s actually me re-imagining Alvin through the movie Heathers. Specifically the idiot jock guy characters in the movie. All the reference to cows and date rape are from the scene where they go cow-tipping.

boys in the hood

Chad- Mark had written a beautiful little acoustic guitar riff and was constantly playing it and singing different love-song-type lyrics over it…nothing seemed to fit. We started giving him a hard time and told him we would never play it. I remember saying that for a riff THAT sugary-sweet, he needed some really aggressive lyrics to offset the music.  Later, Mark came home with NWA’s “Straight Outta Compton” and Eazy-E’s album “Eazy Duz It” that he got from the used CD store. We had all grown up listening to NWA in highschool and we rocked those albums non-stop for the next few weeks. One day, while we were all in the living room, Mark started singing the “boys in the hood” lyrics over his guitar riff. We all turned towards him and smiled. “That’s perfect! that’s the only way we’ll ever play your song”, we said. “if you sing some gansta rap lyrics over that thing, then it’s golden!”…and that was that.

Amber Valleta and Dear, Kate (Moss)

Chad-I had been working as photography assistant on fashion and catalogue shoots in Houston. When I moved back to Austin, Mark and I were always drooling over models in magazines like The Face and Top Model. At the time both of us had lots of music that needed lyrics so we would do little exercises…like deciding to write a song based on the words on the cover of a magazine, or photo spread. This was how Amber Valleta and Dear Kate (superfast) came about. I would usually err on the side of being crass and raunchy, while Mark was sort of truly writing a love song to Kate Moss…but when he was stumped for  words during one part, I helped out with “they all say you’re flat, they all say you face looks like Eric Stoltz in ‘Mask’”..i was always making references to Eric Stoltz in ‘Mask’ for some reason

granola

Chad-granola was about a girlfriend I had that was super into going to WholeFoods and reading about body energy, colloidal silver, blue-green algae, chakras, alien races, etc. At one time she was even a member of this creepy cult outside of Dallas. There were of course always lots of dudes hanging around trying to be the most sensitive and spiritual to get her attention. One guy that I knew from high school was always trying to steal my girlfriend with his homeopathic wizardry. Apparently he even proposed to her at some point while we were dating. This song is about that girlfriend and the guy from my high school always trying to get her to hang out with him at WholeFoods.

sunshine

Chad-sunshine was another one of those instances where there was a song that needed lyrics, but everyone was stumped. So Mark decided to make up lyrics based on the next thing we saw on TV…which happened to be an episode of the show “Cops”. There was a teenage prostitute that was getting busted. The cops were searching her and found some coke and meth, I think. But that’s how it started with “it’s not mine. I don’t have any”…I think those may have been her actual words to the officer. This was Mark’s song, but once again I helped out with some of the more offensive lyrics like “I’m clean. I’m clean, no weirdos please, but I’ll take it in the ass”

It seemed funnier at the time, but I DO agree that it’s pretty insensitive and sad. But, it’s just such a damn good riff. I like to think that we have immortalized the plight of this young girl and of those like her. You buying that?

soulblade

Chad-Mark and I were dating these two girls who were roommates. All they did in their spare time was play this videogame called SoulBlade. Consequently, they were pretty damn good at it. They would come over to our place and mop the floor with us at this game. Mark is pretty competitive video game-wise and set out to get really good at SoulBlade and defeat the two of them at their own game. This song is about that struggle. I think Mark and that girl actually broke up before he ever got the chance to exact his SoulBlade revenge on his girl…but don’t quote me on that.

parachute pants

Chad-parachute pants was actually written completely by our roommate Johnny  (our first drummer). It’s about his childhoods loves . Mr.D is of course Mr. Drummond from the show “Different Strokes”. Willis, Kimberly, and Arnold were the children on the show…Todd Bridges, Dana Plato, and Gary Coleman respectively. It’s sort of sad to know now what became of all those people. I recorded this demo version of the song using mostly the groovebox, pitch adjusting my vocals, and adopting a faux English accent for no apparent reason. I loved this song because just like Johnny I was a breakdancer, rode a diamondback, and loved “Different Strokes”.

Hong Kong Girl

Chad- when I was in college, I worked at an independent video store in Austin called “I love Video”. I got really into HongKong cinema. Not just Jackie Chan, Jet Li, and Chow young Fat. I liked all of it. I was obsessed with the HongKong actresses. This was my ode to some of my favorites: Maggie Cheung, Joey (? Can’t remember), and Michelle Reis.

topless girl

Chad-topless girl was basically a poem that Johnny wrote about this ‘dancer’ that he and I thought was beautiful named Amber. I contributed the last part about meeting mom and being impressed…but the rest was Johnny. Then I just played a bunch of chords I knew in quick succession and slapped it all together. I think the lyrics were actually written on a cocktail napkin while we were at Sugar’s one night. Ah, the good old days.

ross’s plea

Chad-I’ll actually have to get Mark to comment/add to this since it’s his song…but I remember him saying that this song is written from Ross’s (from Friends) point of view when he loses Rachael at some point in the show. It’s a beautiful and sad song and definitely hints at way more depth than I would have ever given credit to the show Friends for possessing. ross’s plea